Not now, not yet....

I've deleted my three previous post (A Letter for Him, 7 Days, and 7 Things). I just thought that now is not the right time yet. I don't know when.....maybe sometimes in the future, or maybe I would not even have the chance......who knows...Everything is a blur, yet it is so clear. It is so simple, yet he makes it so complicated. Maybe I no longer care.....maybe I was wrong all along the way.....maybe this was actually not meant to be.....who knows ?

"Who knows where the road will lead us ? Only a fool would say.....but if you let me love you, it's for sure I'm gonna love you....all the way...."

All the Way - Frank Sinatra

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My First Web Project

Temu Kolese's 2008 official website. Made by the collaboration of Gonzaga College and Canisius College. We finished this website in 2 and a half days.

Temu Kolese's logo was designed by Bhima (De Britto College).

Design by : Albert Santoso, Ruth Afrita, dan Willyam O.S.

Script by : Nico R., Julius Arden, dan Andrew Santoso.

Animation by : Ari Adiprana dan Wira.

Data by : Secretariat TEKOl and TEKOL Website team.

This was my first web project, and also my first time working in one creative team. But for the other Canisius kids, this is like their second, or third, or I don't know. lol. It's cool how we complete each other. I personally is not able to create and develop a website. My only duty in this team was designing the layout. This project was started with Albert creating the base font and typography for temu kolese 08, and me, also William, developing it as a web layout. At first nobody noticed Albert's idea, but then I took a glance at it and straightly thought that it was a good design. Then I asked Albert to join me n\in developing the layout, after that William came and helped us too.

At first, our works seemed to have not gain any people attention for Nico had already made a blog design for Temo Kolese's website. But in the end, our works has finally paid off. The team liked our design and decided to go with it as the one to use. Albert, William, and I worked entirely on Adobe Photoshop CS3. And as for the script, and animation, we left all of that to Nico, Ari, Andrew, ad Julius.

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Dedikasi untuk 26 September 2008

Ehhmmm...If I may say...*halaahh...sok2 pk bhs inggris sgala*...Eniweii...Post kali ini, akan gw dedikasikan, untuk tanggal 26 September 2008. Kenapa ? Ada beberapa hal kenapa...dan hal - hal berikut akan gw jabarkan...

Today, I've learned of things, one of them came as a shock to me *literally*...my heart nearly stopped, I, up until now, still refuse to believe in this "one thing"...

Okay, Lesson number one :

I just discovered, mungkin ga "just discovered" yah...gw udh tahu dr lama, klo gw tuh...BUTA JALAN, BUTA JAKARTA !!! Gw udh nyadar sih dari lama klo gw tuh buta Jakarta, hanya saja...pengalaman hari ini telah menegaskan dan menguatkan, and emphasized it...hehehe...Sumpah td gw pas ngelewatin gedung2 perkantoran tuh kek ank kampung baru masuk kota aja ! lo harus tanya temen gw aldo ! hahaha...kasian bgt tu org, hrs bersama gw di mobil selama lbh dr 2 jam ! Wakakakak...

Lesson number two :

EPSON dan FUJITSU itu di SAMPINGNYA BIZNET YAH !!! dan....FABER CASTELL tuh di JAKARTA BARAT !!! dan...CONCEPT MEDIA tuh di MENTENG DALAM, alias...TEBET/PANCORAN !!! Akhhh....udh jauh2 pergi...hahaha...g taunya nyasar...zzzzzzzzzz

Lesson number three :

Internet, especially BLOG, is not a smart place to share your personal and secret stories with....haaaaahhh....Gw cmn bisa cerita itu. Cerita lebih banyak lagi, gw hanya akan mengulangi kesalahan gw 2 kali...hahahaha...

Jadi, inilah 26 September 2008 bagi gw....dedikasi ku, kepada 26 September 2008.

Selesai. Wkwkwk.

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UPH Sialaaaaaannnn !!!

First of all, for those who in anyway connected or affiliated to UPH, and are offended by my notes in any possible way...I'm sorry, but no offense, this shit actually happened to me and my friends ! So I'm not just going to sit around and act like nothing happened !

Berikut, hal2 yg bkin gw sgt pissed off dan kesel bgt sm UPH, dan sumpah gw ilfeel abis !!!

1. Pada saat gw, ayeq, thomas, leandro, archie, cherry, farandi dtg ke admission officeny UPH :

ruth : mbak, ini kita mo dftr...

mbak admission 1 : ohh, iya2...mm, sbntr ya dek....*lalu kita dialihkan ke loket mbak admission no 2, yg mukany sumpah jutek mampus !!!

mbak admission 2 : mo ngembaliin form ? *msh dgn muka jutekny* mapnya mana ?

Ayeq : ohh ini kita dftrny online mbak.

mbak admission 2 : ini smuanya online *smbl nunjuk ke 6 org ank gonz lainny* ?

Ayeq, ruth : Iya mbak.

mbak admission 2 : Bagussss !!! *dgn nada ketus, jutek, san sumpah NYOLOT abisss !!!*

mbak admission 2 : ya udh, satu2 yah dftrny. yg lainny tolong duduk di sana. *dgn nada yg g enak*

Complain gw : SUMPAH ! UPH GA BISA CARI PETUGAS ADMISSION YG LBIH RAMAH APA ????!!!! Paling ga yg g nyolot yah !!! ptugas kek gituan tuh sharusny ramah !!! bukan nyolot !!! Pecat aja tuh org !!! Staff admission yg shift tgl 19 sept 2008 jam 3 sore namanya Irma !!!! Wuarghhh !!!! *emosi bgt gw*

2. Time pass by, tmn gw ayeq dftr dgn lancar, thomas jg dftr dgn lancar...lalu tiba giliran gw....

mbak admission 2 (irma) : udh bawa 3 gmbr portfolio yg dtndtngn kepsek n dicap, sama essay yg ditulis tangan blm ?

gw : hah ?! Lohh, bknny cmn disuruh 1 yah mbak ? di applicationny termsny cmn ditulis ONE PORTFOLIO (DRAWINGS) SIGNED BY ART TEACHER AND STAMPPED. Dan ga ditulis apa2 tuh soal HANDWRITTEN ESSAY ?!

Irma : *smbl ngluarin file, nunjukin surat* Iya, ini ditulis kok. Permintaan dr fakultasnya, 3 gmbr portfolio, essay yg ditulis tangan.

gw : TP INI DI APPLICATION TERM-NY GA DITULIS APA2 TTG ITU ???!!! trus gmn dong mbak ?

Irma : *dia nanya ke tmnny di smpg* ehh, lo td pas ad ank design yg apply tp g bw 3 portfolio sm essay tulis tangan lo apain ? LO SURUH BALIK YAH ? *dgn nada ketus n nyolot*

Complain gw : First, sumpah ! ini Irma nyolot abis sihh !!! dia ngmg kek gt di dpn gw !!! Arghhh !!! kesel bgt gw !!! mati aja lo !!!! UPH ga bisa cri ptugas admission yg lbh ramah apaaaaa ???? Second, gw kesel bgt sm UPH, KENAPA DI APPLICATION TERM YG DICANTUMKAN DI ONLINE ADMISSION GA DITULIS "3 PORTFOLIO DAN 500 WORDS HANDWRITTEN ESSAY" ???? !!! Sbegitu susahnya apa nulis bbrp kata dan syllablegitu ??? hahh ???!!! Asal lo tau aja yah UPH !lo slh nulis kek gt bisa gw tuntut tau ga ! jgn main2 soal peraturan ! apalagi yg soal kek gini ! lo udh merugikan waktu yg gw hbskan utk prgi ke UPH yg nun jauh di sana, lo udh ngabis2in bensin, uang, dan OPPORTUNITY gw !!! tgl 19 sept shrusny gw ad appointment buat Girlfriend magazine utk mnt sponsor media partner bua acr skolah gw...DAN GW HRS CANCEL cmn gr2 UPH !!! GW SHARUSNY BISA NGEDROP PROPOSAL KE KOMPAS DAN CONCEPT MEDIA KLO GA WASTE WKTU GW DI UPH !!!

3. Pas wktu giliran tmn gw, archie dftr. Dan dicek ijazah UAN SMPny...

Irma brengsek : ini ijazah SMPny belum dilegalisir. Harus dilegalisir.

Archie : loh, tp mbak, klo liat di APPLICATION TERMny *blk lg ni kt ke kebegoan UPH dlm membuat terms admission* cmn ditulis "Copy of NEM (UAN) SMP". Ga ditulis hrs dilegalisir. Klo yg soal raport kls 10 - 11 emg ditulis hrs dilegalisir (A copy of High School Academy Record grade 10 to 11 and legalized by the Principal)...tp klo yg UAN SMP ga.

Irma nyolot : Yahh...hrs dilegalisir...SMUA ORG JG TAU KLO DOKUMEN KEK GITU HARUS DILEGALISIR....*ngmgny dgn sangat amat nylot*

Archie : *udh ksel nih* lah, tru gmn dong mbak ?

Irma sialan : ya udh, balik aja tgl 18 okt msh bisa ko.

Archie : Lohh ? yg 18 okt itu bknny deadline yg utk direct admission yah ? yg scholarship deadlineny skrg khan tgl 19 sept ?

Irma : ga ko, diundur 1 bln. Jadi skrg adek blk aja. *dgn ketus*

Complain gw : SUMPAH UPH !!! Kenapa ga bilang dr pertama klo diundur jd tgl 18 okt ???!!! Gw udh ngebatalin appointment gw, ngabisin wktu 2 jam di mobil, ga bs tdur krn mkirin jalan dmn kt nyasar mulu, ngebuang2 bensin, bkin capek, bela2in ke RS Fatmawati buat bkin surat ini itu, dan TERNYATA PENDAFTARANNYA DIUNDUR ?! An***g Lo !!! Asal lo tau aja ! gw dan tmn2 gw bela2in ke UPH hr itu, padahal besoknya ADA UL MID SEMESTER !!! MAT LAGI !!! dan ternyata pendaftaranny diundur ??? Sumpah ! An***g abis lo !!! T*i tau ga !!! F***k !!! Asal lo tau lagi, mlmny, gw br bisa nympe rmh jam stengah 9 ! dan gw ga kuat blajar krn kcapekan ngantuk !!!

Complain kedua gw : di termny UPH cmn nulis "a copy of UAN from Junior High School", ga ditulis jelas itu tuh mintanya SKHUN ato IJAZAH...dan yg jelas, GA MINTA DILEGALISIR yah !!! Sumpah UPH, skali g deh, bkin peraturan yg bner kek ! dan konsisten !!!

4. Asal lo tau aja, UPH kekny buka online admission tu srius ga sih ? Ko pendaftar yg online admission pelayananny sucks gitu ?! Klo yg dftr direct, dpt map, bk panduan dll, yg online admission udh hrs ngeprint sndiri, ga dpt map !!! buku panduan aja ga !!! emg g bisa apa buku panduanny dibkin pdf di webny ? ktnya GLOBAL CAMPUS, gt aja ga bisa ?

Dan yg dftr online dr gonz masa data2ny dimasukin ke map abal yg tulisanny admission 2006, jd kek map bekas gitu !!! arghhh !!!! sumpah nyebelin abisss !!! yg online admission jg byr Rp 300.000 yah !!! WE DESERVE THE SAME SERVICE !!!

Intinya, gw kecewa berat sm UPH. Gedung boleh keren, tp pelayanan n sistemny ancur. BERESIN TUH DULU sblm bangga2in gedung ma fasilitas !!!

Org admissionny sndiri blg *Mbak Vero, yg suka dtg ke EDU Fairny Gonz...yg ini orgny baik n ramah btw, unlike si Irma brengsek* kalo tanggal deadline utk scholarship tuh jg baru keluar tgl 12 SEPT 2008, jd LAST MINUTE BGT yah asal tau aja !!! sistemny ga jls bgt sihh...sumpah gw kecewa abiss...kecewa....ILFEEL MAMPUS GW !!!

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My Future

Time flies by so quickly...I can't believe I'm in the 12th grade now. It seems like just yesterday was my first day in Gonzaga High school, it seems like just last week I graduated from junior high school. Now I am faced with choices and decisions to make. Lord, I don't think I'm ready for this. Or am I ? Haaahh....You see, I have this plans of my future....

It's not like, I'm-going-to-marry-this-guy plan, or I'm-going-to-have-2-kids kind of plan. Much more simple, yet require a great deal of efforts to achieve. I'm talking about my college/university plan, where I'm going after I graduate high school.

My master plan was I'm going to continue my study in Singapore, I'm going to take Visual Communication (graphic design) as my major. I have already had the university or college that I wanted to go to. NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts) and NTU (Nanyang Technological University) are my targets. And of course, I'm looking for schollarship, there's no way I can afford paying all those bills. Even is my parents do have the money. For once, I want to be the one whose there to help. My parents have nurtured me, paid for my living, gave all the things that I wanted. And now, given the opportunity, I want to pay them back, give them my gratitude. The only way I can do that, is by getting a scholarship.

So there was my plan, Singapore, NAFA or NTU. Little that I know that my plan would suddenly change, over some outer influence. There's this scholarship from Japanese Government, called Monbukagakusho. It's 100 % scholarship, they pay your tuition fee, your weekly "huge" allowance, your plane tickets, everything ! You can't ask for any better scholarship, I have to admit the offer is very tempting.

The first time my Japanese teacher offered this scholarship, I didn't even consider it, I thought "it's a waste of time, I could never master Japanese, Japanese is so hard..." and lots of other excuses. Which is to me logical, I mean, If you study in Japan, the living cost is so high, you have to spent at least 2 years in mastering the language, and then you can apply for the university. It's a long and unnecessary process *that's what I thought at the time*.

But like I said, I was influenced by something....or should I say, someone. I had to say, this one thing, was the biggest mistake that I made through out my future plans. Over influenced by this 'someone', I became suddenly interested in the Monbukagakusho scholarship. I knew that the terms for the scholarship is really hard, but I think I was blinded by this 'someone' at that time. I was blinded upon the thought that maybe, If I could get this scholarship and study in Japan, I could be with him, I can be together with him. To think of it now, I was so foolish and naive. I altered my plans just because I wanna be with someone. It's so silly.

What a blessing that I realize before it was too late. Today, I went to Japan Education Fair in JCC. I was stunned by the long and difficult process of this Monbukagakusho scholarship. Everything about that scholarship seems impossible to me, now. I realized that, this is too big for me. I know, for sure, I know it FOR SURE, even if I study my ass to death, even if I cut all of my leisure time for studying, I wouldn't make it. I know confidence is an important thing, that I should never quite before I try, but I think it's more important to be realistic. What I need now, is to face the reality.

Hahahahaha...funny though, I turned my back once on Singapore...now, I'm holding on to it as my future once again. Good bye Japan, you were a wonderful dream, but I know my limit, I know my capacity, and if I have to face the reality and still having my confidence while doing it, Singapore is the best answer. I know it's not as glorious as how I-go-to-college-in-Japan sounds, but it's more realistic. I live in the real world, facing the reality and living it is my duty.

What do I learn from this experience ? Never ever involve your personal feelings to your plans ! Especially your future plans ! Don't go suddenly changing your college/university plan over wanting to be together with some guy. Go your own way ! Live your own dreams ! If he is really for you, then he will be yours by anyhow.

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August Rush

August Rush.....a film that gives you the true meaning of music, where it can be found, what it can do, what it can give.....I have to admit that I don't know what to say about this movie. This movie practically left me speechless.

I was literally stunned, I was sitting there in my couch, I could do nothing but to stare at the screen, to hear the sound, to hear the music....beautiful is not enough to describe it, amazing is too simple, fantastic is too humble....

Apparently I'm running out of words to describe it...verily, I could not found any word to describe it....All I can say is that this film is amazing, I have never cried over a music before this....I did not cry because of its dramatic and touching story, I simply cried over listening to the music....I was so overwhelmed and amazed, that tears came down from my eyes.

No words from me can do you no good...You should watch it for yourself, hear it, listen it, and be amazed by it...For it will give you the music, like you have never heard of....

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V's Introduction

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition! [slashes a "V" into a Norsefire poster] The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. [giggles] Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me "V".

Hahahahahaha...if there's anybody out there who could understand those sentences above without having to open your dictionary....then please, do tell me. Because I at least had to open my dictionary for every 2 words....hahahahaha

The sentences above are quoted from the film V for Vendetta. A smart, witty, and fantastic film, favored with such a beautiful spirit of politics. A movie definitly worth watching !!! I suggest that you all should watch this movie. Taking all its difference with the graphic novel's version aside...the quality of this film (for me) stands corrected.

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